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Last Evening
My meal plan for today should go as such:
Breakfast - two fried eggs, banana, apple, soy milk
Lunch - 1/2 turkey sandwich with romaine lettuce, side of grape tomatoes, cucumber slices, celery and cheese slices, dip for veggies, two small homemade blueberry muffins with low fat margarine
Dinner - Ham and turkey sandwich with romaine, one small homemade blueberry muffin
Snack - 100 calorie pack of cookies
Let’s see how I stick to that
Evening
Well I did alright today aside from missing my work out this morning. My meal plan was not stuck to perfectly but I did okay.
Breakfast was 1 scrambled egg, soy milk, a banana, and a granola bar. Lunch was a veggie plate, lunch meat, cheese, and some crackers. Dinner was 2 blueberry muffins, a wrap with lunch meat and lettuce, grape tomatoes and some weird thinsations. And I just had a snack of little cookies for 100 calories. I also did laps around my work, as it was insanely boring this evening.
Filed under: Diet, Emotional BS, Exercise, General | Tags: Exercise, meal plans, Weight Loss
Morning
I’ve been up for 20 minutes and haven’t screwed up too badly yet!! I just finished breakfast, which was a banana and two stupid Curves granola bars. My mom got them and it’s up to me to finish them, but if she ever brings them in the house again I will feed them to the neighbour’s dog or something. They taste alright, but aside from the 4 grams of fibre and 2 grams of protein I may as well be eating cardboard. Nutritionally deficient to say the least.
I have a 12 hour day away from the house today, between a stressful meeting and work, so I think I will end up buying lunch or supper. I’ll also bring some food of course, though today is grocery day and my pickings are slim.
I’m off to get on the elliptical.
Evening
Ugh, I’m home from a long, long and boring shift at work. I think I ate alright today. I had Sbarros for lunch, the ziti, caesar salad, garlic stick and some chocolate milk. Dinner was a 6 in veggie sub with cheese and a bowl of soup. I also had a late night snack of a 100-calorie pack of cookie things my mom bought. Probably not a perfect day, but alright I suppose. Sincerely lacking in protein. I’m giving blood on Wednesday so I will need to eat some dead animal tomorrow to get my iron high enough to be able to give at all. I did exercise this morning too, doing my push up set for the first time, as well as 135 calories on the elliptical. That’s 135 out of my 1500 minimum. I don’t have an early start tomorrow so I should be able to get up to 300 or so if I push myself.
I also had my weigh in today and am still at 174. 14 lbs to lose to go to Mexico. Sad face.
Filed under: Diet, Emotional BS, Exercise, General | Tags: 100 push up challenge, Binging!, Diet, push up challenge, traveling, Weight Loss
Morning
I feel like an alcoholic recovering from a week long drinking binge. This is probably where I would stumble home to find all of my belongings strewn on the lawn by my angry significant other who couldn’t find me for so many days she figured the squirrels would make better use of my clothes than I was.
It started last Tuesday when I went to the movies. “Eating popcorn is normal, it is okay, you can fit it into a healthy life style”. So away I went. Wednesday I found myself going on an outing with my mother to go antique shopping. We had lunch in a little tea house, and I told myself that “caramel cinnamon buns are part of a normal lifestyle. My mom is eating one and she has been successful on her diet. How can I not have one in this delightful tea house”. At least up until this point everything had been a conscious decision and actually did manage to fit into a healthy line up of food choices. Wiggle room is necessary, and seeing how little I go to tea houses and movies, the food I had at them did seem reasonable.
What did not seem reasonable was the steady downhill slide I took after this point. Giant heaping two scoop ice cream cones got on a whim. Two bags of Kernels popcorn. And never mind those spinach salads and various fruits I was eating earlier in the week to get nutrition. It all went to crap so easily, it’s actually scared me. I just finished eating one and a half giant cinnamon buns covered in cream cheese AND caramel. That was breakfast. No banana, yogurt and high fibre cereal. Just cinnamon buns. And now I feel sick. I can’t figure out why I am doing this to myself. I told myself this time was different and gave myself a much easier plan to stick to. Addiction has the better of me in this case. I’m not going to let my poor morning start dictate the rest of my day though. I am going to go back to food plans. I see no other choice in the matter. I can take the odd treat stuck inside of an otherwise healthy and nutrient-packed day, it won’t kill me. But when temptation leads me to choose ONLY bad food to fulfill some sort of deeper need, there is a problem.
So, today I am going to have a turkey sandwich with romaine on a whole wheat hot dog bun for lunch. Oh and some cherry tomatoes. Cashews and an apple as a snack. Whole grain pasta with wilted spinach and marinara, and a side salad for dinner. And TONS of water. No more of this dehydration crap. I also need to find a way to fit exercise into this ridiculous schedule I have for the next two weeks.
Evening
Alright, today wasn’t that bad. Best I could hope for I suppose, considering the last week or so. I somewhat stuck to my meal plan. The turkey I brought for lunch didn’t seem that fresh, so I ended up throwing most of my sandwich out. I also caved mid afternoon and got a low fat frozen yogurt. I never got around to eating my cashews and apple either. Dinner was spot on, and at the moment I am having a wintergreen Lifesaver to ease my evening snacking desires. I worked out for a bit today, which mostly consisted of improvised dance moves with my aerobic step. I love dancing as a work out, as cheezy as it feels. I’m going to get onto the elliptical tomorrow morning. I’m also planning to start the 100 Push Up Challenge tomorrow.
I have a lot of running around to do tomorrow. I’m feeling blah and defeated but making a desperate attempt to get back with it yet again. Floundering, floundering, floundering. After meetings and work I will write about how I managed. Lots of meals to pack for tomorrow, though I may cave and grab a sub for lunch or dinner.
Filed under: Diet, Exercise, General | Tags: Exercise, starting over, Weight Loss, work
Late Evening
Today I weighed myself for the first time in a while, and I’m not doing too badly. Not as badly as I thought anyways. I’m at 172.5 lbs as of this morning. That is .5 lbs higher than I thought I was and from what I set my goal at for my Mexico trip. I guess I have 12.5 lbs to lose in the next 20 weeks.
My food intake wasn’t bad. I had a wrap with a scrambled egg and bacon as well as some strawberries for breakfast. A huge salad and granola bar for lunch. Steak, corn on the cob, roasted potatoes and a small Greek salad for supper. Oh and four Rolos for dessert. It was all very tasty, I hope I can keep it up. I also managed to get myself onto the elliptical for about 13 minutes to burn 100 calories this morning, along with some strength training. In a few minutes I’m going to hit the sidewalks for some walking with my mom, which is more just to avoid sitting around and eating like we are wont to do.
I hope next week week when I weigh myself again I see some lower numbers. I really, really want to see 169. I’ve been in the 170s for over a year now, and that’s just a little depressing.
Alright, I’m off to walk. I have work tomorrow, but I am hoping to fit some exercise in before I leave and maybe another walk in the evening. I’m feeling tired and cranky today and I have no idea why. Bleh. I should probably plan my meals for tomorrow, but at the moment I am the definition of lethargic.
Filed under: Emotional BS, General | Tags: back, Exercise, groceries., Mexico, vacation
Evening
My last post was over a month ago. I originally intended to blog during my month-long trip, but after some thinking I decided I chose a stupid time to start a major life change. Aside from that my internet access was sincerely lacking during the trip. It may not have been the best decision since I didn’t lose a single pound during the last month and so, but I am okay with that. I don’t feel like a failure at this point, it was an informed decision I made.
Since I’ve been back I haven’t stuck to any sort of plan. I’ve been busy and in a bit of a daze for the last little while. I think I am finally back in the right frame of mind to take on this challenge. I went out and made sure to stock up on lots of healthy food. Bananas, spinach, strawberries, low fat cheese, yum! They didn’t have any grape tomatoes which are pretty much my favourtie food at the moment. I have to get back into exercising everyday too. Tomorrow will be my first weigh-in in quite a while, but I’m hoping the scales haven’t tipped too much into the plus side of things. We’ll see I guess tomorrow morning.
I do have some new motivation since getting back as well. My boyfriend and I are hoping to get down to Mexico in December/January and we both have weight goals. By December 22nd I have to be at least 160 lbs to go to Mexico. That gives me 20 weeks to lose (around) 12 lbs. That *should* be doable. You know what, it IS doable. I have to start thinking positive if I want this to work. I also need to stop binging on the weekends with my boyfriend. I ate SO much this weekend, it was terrible. Maybe not as bad as last weekend when I ate ten ice cream sandwiches over the course of three days. Blech. Step one is getting that nonsense under control.
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Early, Early Morning
I’m up early to run some errands downtown. My stomach is ANGRY from the food-fun I had last night that was in complete opposition to my diet. I don’t think I can even manage breakfast this morning. Also, I leave on vacation tomorrow evening. At least I’m heading to a major city and staying in the core so I will be forced to do plenty of walking. Must go, update on the stomach situation later.
Late Afternoon
I’ve been sick all day. Worse than normal punishment for eating improperly. Haven’t eaten that much, other than my birthday lunch. I feel just awful, which sucks because I have to get on a plane tomorrow. Kick ass. I’m going to go wait around to throw up now.
Food
Breakfast - nothing
Lunch - 1 and a half pieces bread with oil and vinegar, huge spinach salad, 1/4 of a pasta dish
Dinner - 2 pieces macaroon bar cake thing
Calorie Intake: 1500+
Exercise: 70 minutes walking for 265 calories burned (weekly total of 780)
Filed under: Diet, Exercise, Food Log, Special Occasions | Tags: birthday, rain, smoothies, weightloss, workout
Challenge: Eat 8 fruit and veg types
Morning
Just got up a bit ago and it is pooring rain. Going to get through my work out now, despite my lack of energy. Have to work until late this evening, so I have to get it done now or not to it at all. Breakfast of a smoothie and some cashews after I work out.
Later that Morning
That was a horrible workout, but I got through it. 25 minutes and 215 calories. My knees really hurt. 515/1500 calories done, over a third done for the week! Foooooood!
Afternoon, Post Lunch
I had my planned lunch, plus a 40 calorie chocolate. My mom bought me this huge fattening cake for my birthday, since I have to celebrate it early, and it’s taking all of my will power not to eat the whole thing. I’m trying to stick to my 1,200 calorie day. Sooooo hard! My sandwich was really good at the very least. So yeah, it’s my birthday on Monday, but I will be away so we’re doing the shebang tomorrow. It’s an 1,800 calorie day, but I think I might just make it a “free for all” day and reign in the calories on Saturday a bit to compensate. I hate to declare a random “cheat day” in the first three days of my new life style, but it’s my birthday! I hope this weekend I can stay true to my goals if I go away with my boyfriend. We’ll see. I’m sure wherever we go we’ll be walking lots which is always good!
I guess I should see if I’m anywhere near meeting the 8 fruits and veg goal for today! I had strawberries, raspberries, grapes, watermelon in my smoothie, then spinach, romaine and “mixed field greens” with lunch, which is 7. At dinner I’ll have a sub with lettuce, tomato, onion and cucumber, which puts me way over 8!
Alright. Off to work!
After Work
I caved and ate junk all evening… 
Food
Breakfast - Smoothie (strawberries, Activia yogurt, watermelon, Benefibre, raspberries, grapes, fruit cocktail, peach juice) and cashews
Lunch - PBandJ on brown bread, small salad with Asiago cheese
Dinner - Two cookies, a mocha, koya noodles
Calories consumed: 2,000 (800 over)
Total calories burned: 215
Monday Weigh-in: 174 lbs (down 1 lb)
Challenge: Weight Day!
Morning
Well I guess I can’t complain that I somehow managed to lose an entire pound between yesterday and today. Only 19 more pounds to go by October! I’m feeling quite optimistic, which is a nice feeling. I ate what I planned for breakfast, which was a fruit smoothie and some nuts. It was quite tasty, and admittedly not far from my normal breakfast. I have a fairly big to-do list today, which I need to get done.
I’m hoping I can get myself on track with the dietary goals I set out for myself. Today I have only planned two different veggies into my meals, but there are three servings. I went beyond the amount of fruit I needed, but I won’t complain about that. Getting the fibre in is presenting a challenge, though I did manage to get to 25 grams in my meal plan, and I already know drinking 8 cups of water is going to result in many trips to the bathroom.
Today’s challenge is a weight day, which is nice, since I was planning to do weights today anyways.
Afternoon
Guh, I went off my meal plan already! Not by much, mind you. Not by a long shot. I didn’t have almond milk, so that went off the list and was replaced by cheese (which I’m not supposed to have), and I had carrot sticks with some dip instead of celery. Still healthy choices I suppose. I’m feeling a bit bloated and weird today, but I have to get through my workout still. I’m aiming to burn 300 calories today. I only have until 4 to get a ton of things done, so I should go and get those done as opposed to sitting around on my computer!
Later the Afternoon
Guhhh, I just finished 36 minutes on the elliptical in which I somehow managed to burn 300 calories. Leg jelly! I also accomplished today’s challenge to do weights. I did quite a few sets, using both 5lbs and 8lbs weights. I’m feeling sore but good. Not getting my water intake today, I doubt. Unless I’m going to drink 6 cups in the next few hours, which would require me to wear diapers on the bus later. Going to plan my food for tomorrow, a 1,200 calorie day, and then hop into the shower.
Evening
Overall a good day. I hope I can keep up the good work for more than one day!! I was a bit low on my calories today in terms of my cycling.
Food
Breakfast - fruit smoothie (strawberries, grapes, raspberries, watermelon, Benefibre, Activia no-fat yogurt, peach juice) and cashews
Lunch - PBandJ on brown bread, carrot sticks, ranch dressing, cheese
Dinner - Crispy onion, flavoured rice, beets with Becel low fat margarine
Snack - Two small popsicles
Total calorie intake: 1,322 (78 calories too low)
Total calories burned: 300
Filed under: Emotional BS, General, Weight Loss | Tags: eat right, healthy, lose weight, new beginning, weekly challenge, Weight Loss
I’m calling this day zero, since I’m not truly starting today, other than adjusting my mindset. I know I’m a food addict, and my brain is so resistant to wanting to diet and exercise. It just wants me to lay around eating. I can’t do that anymore!! I have all the resources available to me that I could ever need, and I should use them! At my disposal I have a bicycle, an elliptical, several exercise balls, work out DVDs, weights, yoga mats, work out books,…and the list goes on. And I choose to actively not use them most of the time.
It’s time to call of this fat nonsense. I’m sick of promising myself to start tomorrow, setting incredibly stupid fitness goals that I know I won’t succeed at. I want to succeed this time. I’m sick of failing. I need to dominate the side of me that wants to fail and always gets in the way and let the smaller, healthier me step through. Of course, I’ve probably been programmed this way. I live in Canada, one of the fattest nations on the planet. One commercial advertising a weight loss supplement and the next a 1,200 calorie ice cream dessert you must try because it’s limited time only! No wonder I’m so conflicted!
So tomorrow when I wake up I’m going to try and shake all the negativity, think only positive, healthy thoughts. I’m not going to try and focus on the fact I have over a month of vacation coming up that may make all of this a bit hard!
My challenge for this week is to clean my room and try and stick to my new food and exercise plan as best as I can. I’ll draw my daily challenge tomorrow morning.
